Broken..

So im sitting here in bed just crying and I simply cant believe it. I never had to really deal with death i've been really lucky usually it was distant family.. I lost one of my best friends a couple years ago and my best friend and dog otis a few years ago too.. these where both hard for me though ive done my best to remember them both and keep them in my heart.

On Wensday morning my Aunt Dana passed away.. my cousin Brian went to wake her up to have breakfast with him and he found her, after working on her for an hour the paramedics couldent bring her back..

My Aunt was an amazing person she was strong and full of advice.. we all went to her for advice and knew that we could always count on her. Its SOO hard picturing my life without her. She was a huge part of my child hood.. I spent every summer at her house all week long till I was 15 and I was always over there. I feel horrible for my cousins.. she had three kids. Eric who's 27 my cousin Brian thats my age 24 and my little cousin Morgan who's 18. Its soo hard to see them so broken..

I havent been able to sleep that well for 4 days now.. every time I fall asleep I dream of her being here.. then wake up.. I hate that shes not here.. I just want my aunt back.