Video"gate"

    So here we are on the tailspin of the inquisition. We're still dealing with the fall out of my recent video I've uploaded to YouTube. If your interested I will post the video below so you can see and judge for yourself. 

So this one video has caused more damage then I could ever imagine. As I explained in the last blog I've made my in laws are in a status of upheaval. I am basically on trial as the ultimate fuck up in the history of ever. My wife just had a meeting with her mom the first conversation since my video"gate" scandal. According to her mom they will never trust me again. There is no Bi there is only gay. If your gay you need counseling because your ill to them gay is the ultimate sin. So here I am feeling horrible because of the first mistake I've made in 11 years now my wife's entire family hates me and despite her being the perfect child never getting into trouble going to college and getting top marks and doing whatever they asked of her.. now because of me she is the lowest of low. What do I do with that? At this point I look at what they are doing and I remind myself that I am an adult.. I don't have to put up with this garbage anymore. In the adult world no matter what you feel you cannot lambaste somebody for being themselves. Now I am forced from this moment on to regret the one time I was honest.. the one time that I busted out of my shell and shared a morsel of why I am the way I am. 
    I am so disappointed in myself for letting this video get posted on a forum that her family and my own could see it. I will never be able to forget this, I knew their beliefs were dated and their prejudices were vocal and well known. But I'm sitting here and I feel nothing but pity for them. The fact that they would judge their niece, daughter, cousin soo brutal is disgusting and inexcusable to me. You may feel difference of opinion for people that is fine, but when they are family your supposed to love them irregardless and support them. So here I am forced to feel horrible for who I am forced to feel that I have single handed ruined the relationships my wife had with her family and my own. 
    I have lived my life in the wake of disappointment in people, my family never was there for me when I needed them. There was only one person that was always there for me no matter what supporting and loving me free of judgements and chains attached to her kind words etc. That was my Grandmother and sadly she passed months ago. So now her family has disappointed me I should have known better, then to expect them to respect my lifestyle my emotions and me as a person. They have shown me that they are not capable of an adult relationship and from this moment on I have no choice but to mourn the relationships I had with them all. 
    Her mother was a better mom to me then mine ever was, but there was a huge difference.. even my mom when I told her I was Bi despite her mental disability still managed to say well I will love your regardless and I actually believed her. I will never have a relationship that I can trust ever again with her mom or her family. 
    I WILL not feel bad for who I am, I WILL not let these old fashioned religious standards and religious retardation's weigh heavy on me. At this point it is their problem and they need to work through their acceptance. 
   There is only one regret I have.. and that is that my wife is hurt. At this point I have done all that I can to fix it.. there is nothing more I can do but stand firmly and just reassure her that I love her and we can stand against this together. I have learned that in the future I will talk with her obviously before I share anything more personal. I am just soo disgusted by this whole thing it makes me remember what my grandmother told me. "You come into this world alone, you will have family around you and friends. If your lucky enough you will find someone you love and they will love you. Never for a second think that your family and friends will be there always they are an illusion the truth is its you and your love vs. the world. Remember that always never let anyone have power over you ever." It was the best advice I have ever gotten and it stands true in this circumstance.